Keep Calm & Bring a towel.
The last thing I did while I waited for Cassandra to get home Saturday night, was put the kids to bed & fold some towels. I put Cassandra’s in the bathroom for her so it would be all ready for her shower the next morning. I’m ashamed to say that I specifically chose this towel because, first it’s grey and she firmly believed the grey towels dried better as the green ones are inferior, and second that this was the one that folded the worst. I figured she would open it up in the morning and that error would be gone and forgotten. Well instead, now that towel still sits there as a constant reminder of how things can change. Sometimes a simple little act of laziness will be a lifelong horrible memory. We have all worked around it and left it just as it is waiting for her walk down the stairs, complain about how tall her hair was that morning, get coffee and wander into shower. For now I guess I can take some solace that her towel was ready for her next adventure.
I would love to tell you that I am just surprised and taken aback at the amount of support that I have received between all of the wonderful posts that I have read (keep the stories and the photos coming please), people reaching out to me privately, and everyone looking for ways to help honor Cassandra. But let’s be honest here. This is EXACTLY what I and anyone else would have expected. I am still overwhelmed by everything going on. It is so wonderful to see just how far and how bright her light shined. I am sorry that I have taken so long to say anything and I likely will retreat again for some time immediately after this post. Please do not take that as lack of appreciation. As you might imagine this has been incredibly difficult to process and while the magnitude of what is going on is beyond astonishing it has also made it even harder to face on a personal level.
With Sincerest Appreciation & Sorrow,
Jeremy Fear
Mr. Candy Lady
